OKAY! I am back! It has been a good 20 months since I have posted... well anything. I'll give you a quick update on my life, then back into the topic.
So, since my last blog post I have had a lot of 'firsts'. I graduated high school with my preferred OP score (yes!), became an official adult(you can only do the once apparently), got my drivers license, made friends, lost friends, had my first love and my first heartbreak(you know like romantically anyway), went further Northward in Australia and that's about all I can think of at the moment. With the whole graduation thing though, came University.
I am now in my second semester at uni and my second degree. This is where all the decisions come into effect, I am flustered with the whole not knowing what to do with my life. I am flustered that time won't stop for me to decide. I am flustered that I am wasting time. And it bothers me that I am not the only one in this situation and that kids/adults(whatever) feel like we are forced(you kind of are) to do something with our lives but we don't know what. We don't want to end up miserable our whole lives because we've made the wrong decisions but we also don't want to put off and be unable to provide for ourselves. There seems to be no upsides.
When people ask me what I want to do with my life, it is simple. I want to travel/adventure, I want to be free, I want to love and be loved (family, friends, partners, etc.), I want to have fun and be happy. Pretty much the same as everybody else but that leaves little to be desired in the whole career aspect thing, so we do whatever we can so we can at least have our interest be held in the slightest by something or be able to support what we really want to do.
I originally decided I wanted to be a doctor
a) It'd be interesting. I'd know everything about how the body worked and I could fix people. It would be a valuable and worthwhile job. It's a job you can apply to yourself.
b) I would definitely not complain about the income.
So I applied and got accepted. I hated it. Now I am not sure if it was the whole 'New Scenery' or having to make friends that did it for me or the course itself but that doesn't really matter now. I found that;
a) The degree focused more on theoretical physics and chemistry than practical biology
b) The classes were dry and unrelated to the end career
c) I didn't want to waste my time doing something that wasn't interesting because the end job was interesting. The whole thing had to be interesting.
d) There seemed to be an attitude among the students that they were better than other simply because of the degree they were doing. Now as a sidenote, not to be cocky or anything, I did a lot better in comparison to other kids in my course and I switched out because it was bland not because they were better than me in anyway. So I think it is wrong how they place their degree over others because you may find there are actually plenty of intelligent people doing an Arts degree (everyone makes fun of this degree) because they don't know what to do with their lives. And I simply hate snobs.
I spent six months in this course and I switched into a Psychology degree. I don't know if I'll see this degree through to the end but at least if I do turn out to be wasting my time, I am wasting it on something I find extremely interesting. And if I do see it through at least I can become a Psychologist or a research or whatever and do something I find interesting and earn money from whilst I continue to work out what I ultimately want to do.
I think people have got to stop putting so much pressure on their careers and just do things they find interesting until they find the right fit. Too many people jump on the degree bandwagon for the end job and only think about the money, not their own enjoyment and happiness. Nothing should come before the happiness of yourself (cats may be an exception).
And to wrap this all up and end it. We need to stop worrying about all these decisions, go with the flow, do what makes you happy and remember in the end nothing really matters because we all have the same conclusion and nothing we do can screw that up.
